15 May 2017 - Sick of the South
Evening.
Day 81 with Lexapro.
Mood: 6.
Today was largely spent running hither and thither to get things I need for my trip to Scotland, and I'm feeling pretty good about preparations. I got a $20 raincoat with amazingly deep pockets from Gander Mountain, various toiletries, menstrual supplies as a just in case, and other stuff that'll be useful. A good jar for Scottish sand was obtained as well; I feel good about that purchase.
Speaking of feeling good, I felt cute today, for the first time in a long time. While shopping, I accidentally got a look at myself in a mirror, and rather than look away in shame, the thought wow, I'm pretty cute crossed my mind. Round belly, fat thighs, all of that - it was a rare, pleasant moment. I tried to avoid processing it out of existence.
I can be both fat and cute. I can be both fat and cute. It's a statement of fact that I need to keep telling myself.
My excitement for my upcoming trip continues. Today, I spent some time looking at the menus of the Lebowski's pub in Edinburgh, and picking out some drinks to try with Favorite Person. We both agreed that the safest thing for us to do is to go in with a list of things we want to order and then stick to it, so that we don't overdo it. A list also gives an idea of how much we'll be spending, though that's more of a concern for me than for her.
I also found a petting zoo over there, mostly because I really, really want to meet a Highland cow. Favorite Person has a strong love of cows, and that love has rubbed off on me. It only charges four pounds admission, and is close to Aberdeen, so getting there shouldn't be too much of an issue. I just want to pat one on the head, or bottle feed a babe.
To shift to a more internal topic, my desire to practice witchcraft only increases. Today's fixation was on equipment - particularly bowls. I want to include an earthenware bowl or two, but I feel very strongly that that clay used to make the bowl has to be clay I sourced myself. Dug up, processed, wedged, thrown, and fired. It'll be a fun project for the summer, if nothing else.
Favorite Person suggested that I start another blog for witchy things, in addition to other stuff. My drive in many areas is to use what I source and/or make myself, so the other blog would have recipes and tutorials as well as spiritual stuff. I haven't decided if I'll do that or not, though; I'll tell you all if I do.
There's not much else to say for today. It's super hot here (highs broke 90), and the relatives I'm staying with don't have a functional air conditioning unit. I don't do well in heat - being the little butterball that I am, I hold onto heat quite well and overheat quickly, like a brachycephalic dog. Very much looking forward to getting out of Alabama.
Until then.
I like the way you work it
No diggity
I got to bag it up, bag it up
16 Apr 2017
Day 81 with Lexapro.
Mood: 6.
Today was largely spent running hither and thither to get things I need for my trip to Scotland, and I'm feeling pretty good about preparations. I got a $20 raincoat with amazingly deep pockets from Gander Mountain, various toiletries, menstrual supplies as a just in case, and other stuff that'll be useful. A good jar for Scottish sand was obtained as well; I feel good about that purchase.
Speaking of feeling good, I felt cute today, for the first time in a long time. While shopping, I accidentally got a look at myself in a mirror, and rather than look away in shame, the thought wow, I'm pretty cute crossed my mind. Round belly, fat thighs, all of that - it was a rare, pleasant moment. I tried to avoid processing it out of existence.
I can be both fat and cute. I can be both fat and cute. It's a statement of fact that I need to keep telling myself.
My excitement for my upcoming trip continues. Today, I spent some time looking at the menus of the Lebowski's pub in Edinburgh, and picking out some drinks to try with Favorite Person. We both agreed that the safest thing for us to do is to go in with a list of things we want to order and then stick to it, so that we don't overdo it. A list also gives an idea of how much we'll be spending, though that's more of a concern for me than for her.
I also found a petting zoo over there, mostly because I really, really want to meet a Highland cow. Favorite Person has a strong love of cows, and that love has rubbed off on me. It only charges four pounds admission, and is close to Aberdeen, so getting there shouldn't be too much of an issue. I just want to pat one on the head, or bottle feed a babe.
To shift to a more internal topic, my desire to practice witchcraft only increases. Today's fixation was on equipment - particularly bowls. I want to include an earthenware bowl or two, but I feel very strongly that that clay used to make the bowl has to be clay I sourced myself. Dug up, processed, wedged, thrown, and fired. It'll be a fun project for the summer, if nothing else.
Favorite Person suggested that I start another blog for witchy things, in addition to other stuff. My drive in many areas is to use what I source and/or make myself, so the other blog would have recipes and tutorials as well as spiritual stuff. I haven't decided if I'll do that or not, though; I'll tell you all if I do.
There's not much else to say for today. It's super hot here (highs broke 90), and the relatives I'm staying with don't have a functional air conditioning unit. I don't do well in heat - being the little butterball that I am, I hold onto heat quite well and overheat quickly, like a brachycephalic dog. Very much looking forward to getting out of Alabama.
Until then.
I like the way you work it
No diggity
I got to bag it up, bag it up
16 Apr 2017
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