Symptomatic

✓ A persistent, intense fear of abandonment, including extreme efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment


✓ A history of unstable relationships that can change drastically from intense love and idealization to intense hate


✓ Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self


✓ Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating


✓ Self-harming behavior


✓ Recurring thoughts of suicidal behaviors


✓ Intense and highly changeable moods


✓ Chronic feelings of emptiness and isolation


✓ Inappropriate, intense anger, such as being sarcastic or bitter


✓ Difficulty trusting, accompanied by irrational fear of other people’s intentions


✓ Feelings of dissociation


✓ Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality


✓ Rapid changes in self-identity and self-image, such as seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all


✓ Strong feelings of anxiety, worry and depression


✓ Hostility





i'm sick and there's nothing i can do about it 




i just want you to hug me and tell me that i'm going to be okay 

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