(Weakening) Resolve

What's the point of fighting anymore? You can't actually fix anything. 

No one gives a shit about you. Why do you even bother?

They don't care is you live or die. Nobody does. You know this.

If they cared people would talk to you, and do they? No. Never.

Only Curly ever actually checks in to see how you're doing, and that's probably out of some sort of pity more than anything. 


KH definitely doesn't give a shit what happens. She probably wants you gone more than anyone else does. She just won't say it.

Why bother going to grad school? Why bother with anything? You know that you're gonna end it before your twenties are over, why waste money on something that won't lead anywhere? 


She doesn't give a shit, just like everyone else. If she did she'd talk to you. And she doesn't.

Nothing actually matters, you might as well give up. 


You should carry cyanide with you wherever you go, because you deserve the reminder that you're worthless and may as well die.

No one cares what your state is. Absolutely no one. 


Why bother tell anyone at all how you're doing? They don't care.

You might as well die. They don't care about you.

Nothing you've done is important or matters. Nothing about you is important or matters.

KH says that she has concerns about your drinking, but what does it matter? Drinking yourself to death, taking cyanide, slitting your wrists, it's all the same. No one cares.

No one probably even reads this anymore. How narcissistic are you, thinking that anyone actually cares to read what you write about yourself? No one gives a shit.

You think that all those different drugs will help? No, nothing will. You're just prolonging the inevitable. You'll have to deal with this until the day you die, which will be sooner than anyone expects.

People don't care about a depressed shitbag like you. When are you going to accept that? Just give up, it's pathetic how you think they actually care.

Just give up.

Everything would be better for everyone if you just gave up. You wouldn't be a piece of shit, KH wouldn't have to deal with you, Curly wouldn't have to pity you, and everyone would be better off.

Just give up. It's the only option. Fighting just drags on the inevitable.

Just give up. Bite the bullet and give in. It's in your nature. Suicide is better than being a drag on everyone.

Just give up. 

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