Plans
Hello, anyone that for some reason is still reading this blog. It's been quite a while since the last time I posted anything, and I'm not going to fill you in on what's happened in that time. None of that is important. What is important, though, is that my thoughts have been turning to suicide more and more frequently as of late. It's a vague desire to not be here anymore, a sense that everyone would be better off if I were no longer here. I no longer have people to discuss these feelings with, and not having a real outlet intensifies the feeling. My out plan has existed for years now, just getting more refined over time. I would park myself on the bathroom floor, down the largest bottle of the strongest sleeping pills I can find, and follow it with as much good wine as I can stomach. I don't know if it would be quick or painless, but if I timed things right, it would work. Handwritten notes for the handful of people that are still important to me would be left on m...